a s n i r a;
((:
so it is said. so i believe
to the world, you are somebody, but to somebody, you ARE the world
Amor Est Vitae Essentia; Love is the Essence of Life
it doesn't matter how it happened. what matters is that, it happened
because you are next to me
i just want to see your smile
flowers in full bloom do not last forever
memories stained with tears, eclipsed by fading colours
remember what you were never told, but knew
love is a guessing game
perfect is worth waiting for
while holding hands, we are living
the purpose is to not run away, but to chase after dreams
sucks balls

Thursday, May 31, 2007
a damn weird dream.

really really weird.



im gonna miss the concert tomorrow.

im kinda disappointed. cos i was kinda looking forward to spending time with the band people. ahaha. as weird as it sounds.

there's SEA lecture tomorrow at an ungodly hour of 0730-0900 on a holiDAY! but! we asked for it. ahah.. it was either in the wee hours of the morning where we would be hopefully fresh [haha. what are the chances?] than in the afternoon where I wont be fresh. ahah.



dq's in batam. i'l be there tmr haha. yeyy donuts. i love j.CO donuts. yummyyummy j.CO donuts. the chocolate and banana glazed ones. yummeh

<3ing>

I knew that when I saw her

That my life would soon move over from the fast lane

Gone would be the days of all my drinking and my carrying on

But when I settled down,The party king uncrowned,

This stubborn memory hadn't faded,

Too many dumb mistakes and all the grief it makes

Left nothing else to be debated.

But if you say that you understand then you're lyin'

But if you figure that I'm alright now, I can't deny it,

Baby's coming back,Baby's coming back

So I'm on my best behaviour

I can't take it anymore,I just woke up on the floor today, (yeah, yeah)

I've long run out of my last chances but she's on her way.

If I had a dollar for every single time I fought her,I'd buy a handgun, (buy a handgun)

But that couldn't shoot away,The bull's eye that she made on my heart.

But if I sound like a beaten man, well then I guess so

And on her way is the sweetest prize I can't let go

Baby's coming back,Baby's coming back,I'm on my best behaviour

I can't take it anymore,I just woke up on the floor today, (yeah,yeah)

And I've long run out my last chances but she's on her way

What I told her on the telephone was that I'd been so bad

I wouldn't blame her if she mowed down these wild oats I'd sown

But when she said she'd give me one more chance

I said to knock three times when you arrive

Baby's coming back,Baby's coming back,I'm on my best behaviour

I can't take it anymore,I just woke up on the floor today, (yeah, yeah)

Baby's coming back, my darlin,Baby's coming back, to see me,

And I've long run out my last chances but she's on her way.

oh lovely.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

i love you. i think












no dont ask why.
i just felt like it.

Interviewer: Describe your new material
Dougie: Our new album is like a jar of jelly beans
Tom: Explain the metaphor
Dougie : The.. uhmm. (whispers to tom)
Tom : A flavour for everyone
Dougie: Yes

so cute.
ahah
cheap thrills on a wednesday night

im listening to Mcfly's rendition of Over the Rainbow. ahah. it makes me happy. hurr. something that finally did make me smile for the whole damn day. the whole 59 minutes of the clip.. ahh. see the big smile

:D

i'll post the vid so we all can enjoy (:
see. im a SHARE kinda person.
no idea where that came from

ahh. im missing my friends.

i think.

studying at home sucks but i gotta do it.

blahhs.

you know the icky feeling where you feel like nothing is going right for you and you should have done something more? it eating me up. and its ANNOYING.

i just want to enjoy my damned holidays and not ponder and wonder about all this deep shit.

on to happier things that i can relate to in my life right now..

OMG HARRY IS SO DAMN HOT WITH HIS HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

like drool.

you HAVE to watch the vid. ahhh.. so hot so hat.
atiqah! he's so hot!


i gotta shuttup and drool.

toodles.

oh well. ill prolly check back in a mo. so.. yeah

Sunday, May 27, 2007

i've got jokes. and i am DYING to tell them.

ahh so many many many things. happened. wait. maybe not.

FRIDAY

i actually missed operation cleanup. HAHH.
anyway. NY was having Get Ed! seminar. rather insightful heh. then chionged to TK. to meet minah to retrive certs. met naadira. oh gosh its like she GREW so much taller! gahhs. then TK was so different the canteen was realy bright and cheery. not too sure if that is a good thing or not.. but.. it was nice. chatted with the western stal aunty and uncle shamelessly begged her to go NY to sell (: so at least there will be more choice for muslims (: haahaha

then aunty alice, the nice photocopy aunty swithced on the lights at the canteen entrance JUST FOR US TO SEE (: then collected certs. walked a round the school.. completely missing the place.

went up to our classroom.. i found my table! the HUGE purple stain is still there. haha. like minah says "it smells different" mdm was malking around complaining that the current sec 4s very messy.. leaving the dustbins and stuffs outside. tsk tsk.haha i got her to admit that we were so much better (:

chatted with mrs liew! ahh.. the way she was talking about our class made me want to CRY. can see minah's face also.. :( then we practically chased after ms saffiah.. who was so frazzled. sorry! aha.. then then mdm hassan looked so chic with her new hair. saw r small ang. ahah he WAVED! hahah jealous minah? haha..

lunched in school.. minah accompanied moi (: then made her listen to hey yo and maelhae. haha.. talked to alexa.. goodness.. its refreshing seeing her energy. hurr.. saw darling juniors. all the best in your options la..as long as you are satistfied. im here to help you out (: ahh then went home while minah went to play with her juniors.

SATURDAY

went to school fo GP exam.
ugh.

in the evening went for Midsummer Night's Dream with sha @ fort canning. man it was GOOD. JASON CHAN WAS LYSANDER!!! in case you are clueless. Jason Chan acted as Green Ranger in Power Rangers Ninja Storm! ah! and i think rehaan makes a nice sexya botak. hahaha. the show was really really good. enjoyed it (: ahah.. the picnic was fun. no ants. thank god. was pigging out on junk food. namely chips and cookies. ahh but it really was a magical show (: whee. nice ncie evening . thanks sha for pei-ing moi (:

SUNDAY

had mad exam
wasnt prepared.
had it at AAS. i think i saw minah's sister
it was like a bloody market la. not an exam hall la. sheesh.

discussing WR with one other person? haha..
oh well. we have to start somewhere.
and im caching up on PB (: YEEYY!


have a nice break everyone!

MC; have a nice trip
Minah; drink lotsa water! you know why? cos its gonna be d r y. and take care. dont get lost/abducted. if you see mcfly, GET THEIR AUTOGRAPHS! and have fun, of course. (:

Thursday, May 24, 2007

im loving Hey Yo by Battle. ahahaha...
thankew MC ((:
말해!{maelhae] is nice too (:
see.. Battle



Hey Yo Made me smile so wide (: haha
so now im smiling at the com screen. like a retard :D
the background song is like a ringtone. and there is one part that sounds lke a nursery rhyme. haha

and in school during the 3 hour break that i have EVERY THURSDAY [which used to be filled with band practices but are now empty. see. i miss band. hurr] i was listening to Drive over and over again. sighh.. should be reviewing GP la.. tsk tsk..


challenge for today : sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star to the tune of London Bridge (: haha

should i ..?

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

lookee! pictures from SYF, thankew GRACE. (:
see... shuhui,regina and anabel so mean!

ahh.. there we go (: that's better (:

im still short. though. AHAHA
oh gosh MY HAIR.

MC I'M JEALOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




omg LA!

thanks to her, im liking battle songs. i want to follow you MC ...
put me in your luggage ((:

the pain in my teeth has been reduced to a dull ache. i cant be bothered to talk. takes too much effort.

i think eating that foldover was too much effort for my teeth.
i should stop complaining.



i went to cheeri's blog and kop-ed this.




i <3 cheeri who is at pre-u sem now.. enjoy it dear girl (: pant pant sent me a message which shocked me into silence. really. and i didnt reply her. haha. cos i wouldnt know what to saw. i mean do i laugh in disdain? or do i encourage her? sorry pant pant if you are reading this.. i was shocked into silence. i havent uttered a word since. i'm serious we had band review. the comments from the judges were also read. it was a laugh each of us already heard the recording, we know our mistakes. however some of what the judges comments makes me really wonder if the were listening AT ALL. and i burnt my nail while trying to light my candle. haha. i was practicing with the lighter Gloria handed to me officially [:D] and and i just cant grasp the simple concept of lighting the damned candle. and burnt my nail and finger in the process how fun is that. oh no..it wasnt serious burns just the fire grazing them and the top part of my nail is relatively burnt. it turned black until i peeled them off.

J2s are leaving already. im going to miss practicing with them. i'll miss talking to regina. haha [haah strawberries] i'll miss shu ying's jokes, i'll miss all the clarinet J2s. eventhough the time i've spent with them is only 56 days the memories are more than that. seeing them is just not the same

congrats to the new band EXCO (:



im glad the air is cleared. ahha wog and i worry for nothing.. haah haha take care in BOSTON dear froggay long jia wen (: haha and wog sent me our fugly photo we took. ahaha



i <3 woggay

so im panicking now.. cos the notes are absent and we need them for tutorial.. i've checked 10 times today and the rest of my classmates have also been consistently checking.. hurr hurr..

im just tired tired tired la.
give me time and ill get back on my 2 feet.

i should just consume chocolate like right now and get over it right?

hurr

im sorry, i just cant tolerate your nonsense anymore..
for now anyway..

my teeth hurts la dammit

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

im feeling green today. so i shall happily post in green.

quote from dique: happy only..

talked to pant pant this morning. the girl sounded much more cheerful that she did a few nights ago online. haha. wanted to make plans for lunch but the nehneh forgot she ended at 1730. hurrhurr.

holidays are coming up. and for once, i dont have lessons every other day (: the joys of NOT taking H2 MATH or ECONS (: haha. i have to come back for 2 lessons of history and prolly band? and im done. and of cos on the sidelines there'll be band . ahhhha.
which reminds me. i have no bloody idea what to expect now. oh gosh oh gosh
and of course. PW meetings. eileen and i i was gripping onto eileen's hand for strength as our GPP got reviewed. ohmygosh la. its FINALLY accepted. :D on to the WR :/

oh yes. history readings. OMG its so saturated! reading 18 pages was like agony. ahh!
i must must must get into the rigour of reading such boring, long texts that will be essential for my a levels. right..



i miss MAG alot.
though we have not been keeping in contact as often, as much at all this year.. i MISS THEM ALOT. i just saw wogg.. and germ tagged aeons ago.. where are you froggay? ): i miss miss you.

ah shit.

i miss you guys loads.


i want those times we had. i WANT THEM NOW. im selfish. i know. we all have our own lives. i know. but is it so hard to check back with each other once in a while? i did make the effort. i tried. i really did. but i cant do it alone. im sorry. i really did try.
























excuse me while i go dry my eyes.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

i can't help but wonder


will i meet the expectations?will i disappoint?will i cope?and my peers...

oh gosh.


i need sleep. thank goodness school starts at 0900.


damn i want a SEAL book now.

was having fiqeh exma. and as usual. didnt study. gahhs. i planned to do so but never got around to it. oh well.

haha. was talking away. what else is new.

i am real glad the GPP is almost done. just need the approval. phew?

lets wait for tomorrow.



the pianist is so shuai! aH! hahaha

im still sick and it sucks. my lungs feel all fuzzy. haha. if that can ever happen. (:



im a happy happy happy girl. today (:

the piano duuude is HAWT (: ahhahaahahahah

Saturday, May 19, 2007

UFO : United Foundation Oppa

- Shin Jung Hwan

HAHAHA

UFO : University Fly Objoeing/Objoecy

-Ayumi & HanKyung

HAHAHAHA

UFO: Unidentified Flying of KOKO

-HeeChul

HAHAHAHAHA

i love love letter (: it makes me happy

strawberry tea is love but it maketh my throat itch

haha

oh yes. band elections.

i was rather surprised with the top 15.

eh uhm.
it turned out to be a popularity contest.
cos i think other than 3 exceptions, the rest were 1st intakers.
the people i thought were REALLY capable (and i actually was looking forward to their uhmm.. leadership abilities) weren't up there. (only 5 of MY choices were up there. sad case. i was rooting for some other people..)
i was rather disappointed. i was looking forward to their Q&A but it was not meant to be.

best wishes for the top 15 (:












my throat is SORE

NYCJSB SYF :))

ahaha.. spot moi (:

yep yep. im sick. coughing sucks. BEEG time.

laadeedums, my mum banned my from the fridge. haha. i dont care. cos i still get my icey cold watahhhh (:

im looking forward to the hols. kinda. i think. ohwells

off to GPP.

blahh.

i hate it.

i wish..

oh nevermind.

thank you for giving me the chance. really.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

im waiting for the clock to strike midnight .

im geting sick.
im snivelling ):
im tired
im feeling cold.


oh its 1200!


HAPPY BIRHTDAY HO MIN CHIEH!!!

I MISS YOU!!!!! :/
HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD MY DEAR GIRL (:

i only want to say this

to my PW group

JIAYOU. WE CAN and WE WILL DO IT.

really.really.
JIA HAO! DON'T STONE ANYMORE. we are progressing (:
HAO YI! yeyy (:
EILEEN! Try your best kayy. ((:
BORUI! Get well soon (: and thanks ALOT.
















right. i was lying that is not the only thing. haha
we were having band elections. i thik our elections are cool. even faith says so. haha
i was feeling really out of it so yeah.. but i did not make a fool of myself like i did during the MLCS one. at least i didnt think i did..then after that.
rushed home to break fast. hah. couldnt bear to leave the band elections half way although it was already 8.


so here i am
redoing GPP


oh dear. im dreading this. but i CANT! i wont.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

i swear listening to SOD maketh me high.
i mean the lyrics are like urr.. haha.

things are tumbling down [?] now. but putting the pieces together is a calming process. but it takes time.

i love pant pant minah and dique.

you are dearly missed ):

Monday, May 14, 2007

my speakers still refuse to cooperate. damn ): haha
yes yes.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

i'm officialy 17. gosh im getting OLD :/
it was a really quiet day. like REALLY quiet. i just felt so drained. haha what a way to turn 17 huh?
so all day i attended lectures and tutorials and did my GP essay and tried REL hard not to sleep in Malay and i pulled through till 1530. phew.

thankew to all those who wished me (: haha 0732.. thanks.. and pant pant and meeenah for pei-ing me all the way to schoo [tk] only to discover its closed for the day. hurr. then went to PARKWAY [gosh its been so loooong] for dinner (:
haha the chronicles of our dinner. haha
gay shit. halfway they decided to sing me a birthday song. oh gosh, majorly embarassing :/
i still love them though ((:

first, we had pant to solemnly swear to not talk about calories, carbs fats and whatnots while in our company. we made her swear on the swensen's menu(: she was embarrased. naturally


then we ordered chicken baked rice. yes all 3 of us. and minah took this picture

then pant, the itchy butt was putting on her short skirt.

and while i was drinking minah took this

we drank water

had dessert yum sitcky chewy chocolate

pant's double scoop macademia nut and peanut buttercup

minah's the new promoter for RuiBum


then we walked around for a bit. took photos


see how dirty pp
s escalators are? tsk tsk haha
BFF ((:


and i got myself a BEAUTIFUL ring (:



oh yes while on the way to AMK getting my specs, i skipped steps while coming down the stairs at AMK HUB and i feel so malu!! hurr ): and it kinda hurts. oh well


(:


me and you?

Sunday, May 13, 2007

-just cos you make me smile.

hah. i should stop al these random postings.

ahh yes i made new specs (: ahaha.. my degree went UP.. by 75 on the right eye and 25 on the left. and i discovered i do have lazy eye. hmm.. so now my right eye has a degree of 800 and the left, 725.


ho hum
i love my eyes. i really do.
and to think of how much a pair of lenses will cost in the future... makes me shudder. 1.4 K. just for a pair of SuperThin lenses. without FRAME..
hurr. hurr.

and feet's getting worse ):




aww shite

goodnight everyone (:

<3

love you

i BADLY WANT MiTO DVD ))):

(: all pictures from SYF.

its a GOLD baby!! haha ((: yes yes. we ARE ELATED


Annonuncer :" Band number 8, Nanyang Junior College Symphonic Band Gol-"

NYJCSB : SCREAMS

haha. was kinda funny actually. i mean. not all of us were in the hall. the rest of us were crowding on phones which was on loudspeaker mode (: haha...
SYF over. and done with.
im missing band. actually.
haha. i woke up late on Saturday thinking "shit. im late for band" then i realised. oh hell. its over. SYF is over.

i will miss all the j2s!!! ):
all the memories kept safely in my heart.
never forgotten.
all the jokes. THANKEW. really.
we gave it our all.
playing our music with beaming smiles on our faces. i SAW them.
we did rock the stage.
congrats TO US.
cheers


anyway. credits to GRACE for being so efficient in giving photos ((: haha


j1 clarinettists 07 ((:






another shot of us ((:


2nds (:
ahaha.. long legs and i. we had. uhm difficulty taking this cos of our height difference ahaha ((:



yepp. its anabel and asnira

hmm.. there's more with the section and all.. )):

i shall wait.(:

watched OTHELLO alone yesterday. felt so loser-y. thank goodness for regina and pant too. when she wasnt too busy eating with the sea creature (: ahaha regina was there with me. through sms ((: thankew dear dear dear girl for accompanying me. i prolly disrupted her evening. oops. sorry dear! but i really really appreciate your company :D yeapp.

and rushed down to bishan library after madrasah to do PW (: ohh haha. we were thinking of inventing our own mp5. called. the orange uPod. -chortle. haha


yes yes. i AM COMMITTED. WE ALL ARE.
:D

ohh.. guess who turns 17 tomorrow? ahah.. at 1201 h? ahaha ((:

and Cate Blanchett turns 38 tomorrow ahah ((:


i'll be seeing minah and pant [hopefully!] tomorrow!!

ohh yeah. bitchfest.

BRING IT ON

Thursday, May 10, 2007

i freaked out majorly because i couldnt find my history notes.


how pathetic can i get.

im still shaking cos i still cant find them and i've alredy printed another copy.



shite asnira.
you need to get a grip.
its only a fucking set of notes.


or wait. will my commitment be questioned?>

nink-ed at 12:01 AM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

i'm not much of a ponner BUT.

i just want to freaking pon school tomorrow.

REALLY

agh.

after SYF is over and done with. asnira vows to catch up with her work.
asnira barely has the energy to wake up the morning and drag herself to school where she feels EVEN MORE drained.
shit some just go all out to be annoying.
syf's in 2 days.
after that. . . .
asnira is being emo-y now.
and asnira need to do her homework pronto.
asnira cant wait for the day she turns 17 [which is in5 days] for some reason or other.
asnira would love a hug and a bar of chocolate.
cos the pisser is pissing asnira off.
asnira wants to go out with pant and minah.
asnira need s to go and collect her o level cert.
asnira cant stand it anymore.

. maybe i'll just stay in bed.

nink-ed at 10:14 PM

Monday, May 07, 2007

was so so shageed and hand a drumming headache in school swallowed panadol actifast (: during lit and slept for ahlf and hour in discussion room 2. ohhh it felt G R E A T.:D


haha. after lessons which ended at 1530, long legs, cheryll, wan ling, grace, wei ling and i chionged to j8 to get their shoes. laadeedums.
had band later.

i dont think im gonna do my essay.im gonna heed gloria's advice and not care about homework and tutorials. for the moment. shite im tired LA. we ALL are, hurr hurr.

oh Alalh give me strength to pull through for the next few days.
amin

love you all (:

nink-ed at 10:18 PM

Wade : What does an Editor do?
Tim : Basically, uhm.. He tells you if you suck. Wade, you suck

i think that's funny ((: haha its from DLOTAB haha (:

nink-ed at 12:33 AM

Sunday, May 06, 2007

caught spidey 3.


omg SPIDERMAN so EMO..
i felt like slapping his face.
like what the fuck?
eeyer.
quote from gina "the only nice part about the movie was the POC 3 trailer"

haha
have to kinda agree with her. but oh well. the movie was FOC. :D
the whole theatre was like a freaking amrket. imean. please la. lets be a little considerate. you wanna bring KIDS to such a movie with sudden changes in environment and shockingly sudden entries from characters its a FREAKING MARKET. no doubt its free and for the family but oh gosh there ARE some people who would actually LOVE to hear what the characters are saying. seriously. and there was this adorable little girl who was playing at the stairs. going up and down up and down the theatre. so cute.
watching tobey mcguire from the third row makes him look fat. and a little but like Mr Bean. dique and i were giggling. nah we kept it to a minimum but it was so similar!! haha

just kinda got back from rehersal at SCH. saw WOGGAY dearest, (: haha. oh gosh. havent done so many things. eeyer.

gosh .

c'mon dear NYJCSB. this past 2(?) months have been a hell of a ride that i took. and taking it has been a joyous experience for me. from the bottom of my heart, i really really enjoy playing and slowly getting to know you guys. i know we can do our best on the 11th. we can, we shall, we will. SMIEL everyone and hang in there for that FINAL s t r e t c h.


whic reminds me the uniform comes tomorrow.

ohgosh ohgosh ohgosh.

nink-ed at 11:17 PM

Friday, May 04, 2007

ok. sorry for the random post.
cos i was rushing for band. yes yes. i was in the library with sha. haah pei-ing her for a while.

books in the library have gotten MUCH MUCH better. thanks to the loan from the NLB (: whee!

yes yes.. talking about yesterday's night trip to BUKIT TIMAH.


right.
actually, the band uniform person was supposed to come down with our dresses. yes. dresses. but but.. some problems arose so 15 of us trooped to BUKIT TIMAH SHOPPING CENTRE to try our dresses. we left school at around 1800h-ish the journey took about an hour? was telling jokes all the way. then tried our gunny sacks. laaadeedums all the way till 9ish. dear regina stayed on to experiment with the dresses. (: thankew regina!!

reached home at 2230. super tired.
this morning.
slept the first period away.
no worries, it was a free period. then then gradually, my shitty feeling was replaced a joke highg feeling. right up till band tutoring session. was going around with grace telling super funny jokes.
oh yes before i forget.

today is the 4th of may. so,


May the Fourth be with you









HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. funny right?! i heard in on Muttons in the Morning was telling EVERYONE about it. their reactions varied. Gloria was the best. along with Grace. all out laughing man! haha.

there's a LOAD of homework to catch up on. and my weekends are SO FULL.


go go go go ((:
i WILL try to complete ALL my homework (:
i feel freaking dumb cos i just found out about the colour and font bar.

rahhs.

come on people. CHEERUP. we will never have such a chance again.

im treasuring it.
are you?

don't cry because its over, SMILE because it happened

nink-ed at 10:22 PM

im so dumb! AH embarassing.

so malu.
ah anyway.

i ponned lesson. SHH!

and and and.omg. yesterday. haha. cannot tahan. was speaking in thrid person the whole time we were going to BUKIT TIMAH.

aiyah
have to go ((:

nink-ed at 3:28 PM

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

asnira would love to have some uninterrupted sleep.
could asnira have a large order of uninterrupted sleep?
asnira craves uninterrupted sleep

and also along with at order?
could asnira also add on a whole load of homework that has been miraculously completed?
thanks

nink-ed at 10:24 PM

aiyoh.. don't be so emo la.

yes. that goes out to me and all the others who are feeling dumpy.
i am feeling dumpy. but i guess. NO USE MAN!

yes yes. must must must be the best that i can be.

speaking of best.
i havent done GP essay and LIT essay
asnira is so behind in her homework. tsk tsk.
and and and. gotta gotta gotta go study for histoire fact test. ahaha.. must must must remember all the tjokroaminoto, vietminh, PNI, ICP and whatnots.

oh dear oh dear.

hahah.. qi guai.
ve been saying that alot. ahaha EETATING. ahah (;

i love snowball. but snowball gave me an ulcer ): blahh.
sparkle's a nice name don't you think?
must must must polish snowball. must shine (:


lack dreamless sleep is hazardous.
yadda yadda
i love rainy mornings.
i just dont wanna wake up. wanna cuddle cuddle under my comforter.. snuggly ((:


shuttup asnira.

i think i made an ass out of myself. i mean. yeah well that always happens. but in front of people who are interviewing you? not a very good impression.


yes yes aelin.
i love you.


watching othello next week ((:
my oh my.

love you so

nink-ed at 9:30 PM